Friday, July 4, 2014

Happy Fourth of July!

{Last summer - poolside}

It has always been very difficult for me to take any time off. Working full time and being a full time single mother of five leaves me very little time for myself. At work there are expectations and it is the same when I walk through the door at the end of the day. I have to always be here for them so even trying to get away for a weekend is next to impossible. I dream of what it would feel like to get away from it all and truly rest and recharge. The demands of every day life and the responsibilities that accompany that life can sometimes be very overwhelming. I could always be doing more, giving more, being more there. Just having this blog as a hobby I feel a bit guilty asking them for the quiet time to do it. It feels selfish. Even though my children are moving into adulthood (my second turns 18 this week), they need me even more than when they were babies. Not only do they need my help in the physical sense, but also the emotional and as an advisor. These past couple weeks it caught up with me a bit and I feel like I cannot give enough to the ones I love the most. But I wouldn't change a thing. I am thankful for every moment and every struggle. Every tear and all the laughter. The pains of growing and the joys of success. The freedom to live the lives we choose is a gift that so many people live without. It is on these holidays that I take a moment to remember that someone sacrificed so much so that I could be this exhausted. Tonight as we watch the fireworks I will take a moment to cherish all the memories from holidays past and look forward to the future. Thankful I have that in and of itself. Have a great weekend <3

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